Thought would write something for u...

Thought would write something for u...

And believe me...every word i write here is true...

We've just talked for two days...

But each moment felt like a maze...

Making me loose myself in it more n more...

Where i was going ...i was not sure...

I just kept taking steps, without thinking right or wrong...

Rather i should've held onto myself n known where i belong...

I simply got carried away...

Emotions high, knew no way...

Never felt this innocence in a voice before...

It did touch me inside...and did to the core...

You might again call this all bullshit...

And hold it all against me for the mistake i did commit...

But i swear i never wanted to hurt u...

Only wanted to know u more n come close too...

As i said, there was nothing in my mind before hand...

It just happened n nothing was preplanned...

What u saw was just my emotional part...

Trust me I'm a much better person at heart...

You said all sorts of words...

They did hurt...what else I can say...

Just did not think what i was saying...

With me my mind ...just kept playing...

One thing just led to another...

Feelings and emotions flowed together...

Now it feels bad, wish i could turn the time...

Like a flick to a nickel, penny...or to a dime...

But i know words once said never come back...

And they can even leave scars blue n black...

Please forgive me...n let it go...

Let me be the way i am, don't say no...

Please smile n give me a second chance...

I promise you I'll be strong n keep a firm stance...

Finishing it now and again...please don’t mind...

Be there...as a sweet memory...I try to find.

Fear

After a long time I feel like writing again... I feel refresh, excited, charged-up... after a long time I'm happy...happy as in genuinely happy...so here is my take on fear...is it on general fear?...well no...its a take on the things I fear the most in my life...
Isn't life beautiful till the time u have everything that u need around u or sometimes even more than u actually need...but what if one day u get up and everything around u just changes or vanishes...how wud u feel? confused, helpless, hurt...will it really matter that much... will you be able to feel the real importance of the things which were 1's around u but arnt now becoz u've lost them, becoz u dint care for them when they were near... sometimes u ignore the truth or become indifferent...but does it really help u get rid of the fear of lossing...fear that is hidden somewhere in the core of ur heart under all ur emotions covered with a seal...locked with all ur secrets...we all know that life is a beautiful song which should be sung each day whether or not u good at it...shine bright like the sun all day long and glow glittery like the stars in the night...but do we really do that...do we really practice what we preach...well some might say that they do and some that they atleast try to but the truth is that even when we know what we sud be doing in life, we dont do it...we dont practice our thoughts... we dont follow our heart all the time...we dont becoz of our fears... fear of loosing, fear of disappointment, fear of letting someone down...fear of facing the reality...fear of facing 1's real self... life is surely tuff but living with those fears is more tuff...so why not get up...tie-up ur shoe and get ready to face and fight with all ur fears... confess all ur fears n doubts...take out all that is bothering u and then see how u feel...everything around u will be as beautiful as u expect it to be...as it was before...everything will be fine and 1's again u'll be happy smiling, singing, dancing like no one's watching u...like I am today...I'm happy...so so soooooooo happy!!

A New Day Is Set...

A New Day is set before me like an unwritten volume with all its pages blank waiting for me to scribble on them my each days moments that had brought joys n sorrows so that at the end of the year i look upon it with rejoicing rather than regret... it is asking me to look behind n understand with faith n love around me...wanting me to forget the pains which brought me insane.
The day is promising to give me a fresh start not only at the beginning of the year but every morning that i wake up...it promises to welcome me with its soothing fragrance of freshness, so that i have the courage to hold a chance to start it new n make things work right. Today the world and everything in it is as beautiful as i dreamt of it to be.
Now i'm all set with the enthusiasm which is the power of my new life without which i was all flat...i'm all set with hope n faith which has nullified all the past memories n made me realize that the journey is yet to begin...till then i got to hold on with patience quitely after putting my worries in its proper place-out of my life.
Now i have all the time to invest in me n give it all the attention n love that it deserved... I'm remembering the people who use to tell me things cant be done the way you want them to be... I'm thinking that throughout history has proved progress from people who said it can be done... who said that the secret to success is never to give up but is in taking up the challenge and making the impossible go possible.
I remember my mom telling me one's:

' Forget the past;

it's dead n gone.

Live for the Future;

it's alive n full of potential'.

All my life I've been scared of tears but had never realised that though they were silent n weak but still were precious like gems they sparkled in the eyes n soften my heart n even were the reason to clear my vision.
A New Day has proceeded to perform its actions n I am all strived to explore something new even before someone else discovers

Love U MAMAA...

I choose this special day,
A day which is u'r birthday,
Not to thank you but to thank the god...
God who created you,
I wonder why?
Was it to help us understand his world,
Was it to show us ways in which to grow,
Or was it to give us a special friend ,
Who could possibly be there with us,
In all ups n downs...
And would still ask for nothing,
Who could guide us right instead of wrong...
But anyways!
May it be for any reason,
I still choose this special day,
To tell you, to let u know that...
I'm thankful for u'r unconditional love
N for your hard work in me,
To make me what I'm,
And not what I could be without U...
Love U MAMAA...

Words...

Do u ever think y God created words so beautiful n warm,
well guess to listen to our confidence,
to share our smiles n tears...
sometimes when they try our patience or
borrow our expression we name them so selfish,
n yet as the time goes by our understanding grows
in knowing their real source...
Its easy to b with them, for there's no need to pretend,
n there's nothing like words when u really need a friend...
Thats y they r expressions of pleasures which are to be kept in treasures...

Life of a student...

Life of a student is full of care,
As we pick up books n books everywhere.

In History the names of dead people are used,

And to study them we are often confused.

Grapes of English are often sour,
Cannot get marks more than four.

We do sums of angles n triangles,
Learning them our minds are tangled.

Our eyes are full of tears,
Hearing that examinations are near.

Really what is our life?
Full of caves everywhere,
Have no time to stand n stare...

Dard hota hai ki ehsaas...

Dard hota hai ki ehsaas
Abhi baki hai,
Jaan attki hai ki koi
Saas abhi baki hai...

Naami ankho mein kuch
Iss tarah se hai,
Ki koi khab sajane ki
chaah abhi baki hai...

Nazaar jhuki si hai kuch iss tarah,
Ki palak uthane ki chah abhi baki hai...

Dabi hui si hasarat
Hai is dil mein kuch aisi,
Ek hassi safar mein tera saath
Pane ki chaah abhi baki hai...

Tears...

They flow on cheek,
They are silent and are weak,
Wet and light on the spring,
They sparkle like gems on a ring,
They are brief as a dream,
But they taste of a salty stream,
They neither speak nor make a sound,
Nobody has know, nobody has found,
What are these, I think I know,
Yes these are tears I know, I know…

The Word Is "Domestic Abuse"

There have been many cases some on formal records and some informally avoided of confrontation but is it really not important to prevent it from happening… it is known in many terms some call it as possessive act and some incompatibility in relationship… but the word is DOMESTIC ABUSE.
Domestic Abuse is an act or behavior that inflicts or is intended to inflict physical harm. Along with the physical violence there are hurtful words which demean another person as well as threaten with violence. Making light of the abuse and not taking her concerns about it seriously, saying the abuse never happened shifting responsibility for abusive behavior is not a right way to deal with such situation. To Abuse is almost entirely about control of the abuser over the victim. It is often a primitive and immature reaction to life circumstances in which the abuser (usually in his childhood) was rendered helpless. It is about re-exerting one's identity, re-establishing predictability, mastering the environment – human and physical. The abuser, losing control means going insane as he is aware of the victims “INABILITY TO EXPRESS FEELINGS WITH WORDS” which makes other people as mere elements in the abuser's mind. Abusive individuals are usually very emotionally dependent on their spouse who soon makes them feel inability to manipulate or to control their own life as they start feeling lack of support in their relationship. Imagine if you suddenly were to find out that you cannot manipulate your memories or control your thoughts... Nightmarish!
The abuser acts unpredictably, capriciously, inconsistently and irrationally. Most victims attempt to present to their children a "balanced" picture of the relationship and of the abusive spouse but here children have a right to know the overall state of affairs between their parents. They have a right not to be cheated and deluded into thinking that "everything is basically OK" – or that the separation is reversible. Both parents are under a moral obligation to tell their offspring the truth: the relationship is over because most men who abuse their partner go on to abuse their children. The victimized parent should tell the child that abusive conduct is wrong and must be avoided. The child should be taught how to identify the warning signs of impending abuse – sexual, verbal, psychological, and physical.
Moreover, a responsible parent should teach the child how to resist inappropriate and hurtful actions. The child should be brought up to insist on being respected by the other parent, on having him or her observe the child's boundaries and accept the child's needs and emotions, choices, and preferences. The child should learn to say "no" and to walk away from potentially compromising situations with the abusive parent. The child should be brought up not to feel guilty for protecting himself or herself and for demanding his or her rights.